And so, I have returned to good ol' blighty. ( England ) Halloween had its ups and downs, Sadly the downtown area of Toronto was less than festive. 3.5 months went in a blink of an eye. My first apartment on my own. My first shot at working in a real studio doing what i love doing.
the biggest question i have now is.. what do i want? i have been offered the chance to work out there full time. some would say the choice is a simple one. choices are simple, its the following actions that are the hardest to make.
You have all been greatly missed. as my internet time was greatly limited and i have much reading/catching to do.
i awake to find my self trapped in the cell of reality. a kinda darkness in wave form, an almost drainging feeling of life spilling out of me, a total lack of caring, i feel like screaming every waking second and bashing my head against the wall.
I'm plagued by this feeling. this undeniable fate which i can't avoid. i question my self daily. hourly. the question remains the same. the answer from everyone is " I don't know".
i try to be the best person i can be. but sooner or later everyone leaves top be with with they want.
so, after 2 months i've finally memorised V's ( V for vendetta) onomatopoeia speech.
"Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate.
This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is it vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished.
However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition.
The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous.
Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose so let me simply add that it’s my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V."
After being screamed and shouted at. my mom and her parnter had hit a bad patch. he works in portsmouth, and my mom is now on her way down there.. 3 hours away.. she won't get there till gone 11pm tongiht. i hope she's gonna be ok and things work out :(